Sunday, July 22, 2012

bitter memorable. sweeter forgettable.

it's all fake. 
nothing is trusty anymore.
my tear my feel my heart isn't important anymore.
i'm scare to lose, i'm hold, but in return i lose everything.
i'm appreciate the relationship, i'm beg, but in return i get ignorance. 
i'm know my fault, i'm apologize, but in the end it still the same.
i'm scream, i'm cry, but who bother? you? me? is nothing!

keep revenge please, give back all the scar i gave.
nothing to compare, but truth always being distorted.
explanation is useless. i am not forgiven. 
nothing else i can do to atone.
nothing else i can do to give back your colourful life.
any promises are not important anymore. rules are always being broken.


the past is keep being reveal. only the bad. 
i don't have the capability to change the past. 
i try to delete all and all and all.
but it change nothing. it all seem like very fake to me.
happiness? it look so far far away from me.
open heart? is there anything i can trust anymore?
i'm can't afford any hurt anymore. i'm a girl. i'm not a superman.
even a very strong man his tear will still be salty, 
his heart will still feeling sad when being hurt. 
i am not strong enough to face anymore. 

you live your life with the way you want. 
me? just let me be forever evil and alone.
i am not entitled to expect anything from you.
don't think too much? i'm nearly mad already.
No. i'm already mad. mad enough to do kill myself.
haha. it was so funny. my heart still waiting for something.
but, it will not be there anymore. nothing left for me.
bitter is always memorable, sweeter is always forgettable~  =')