Accompany。

怎么了 心情一天比一天的更加低落
怎么了 总是在课堂忍不住哽咽哭泣
怎么了 总是说不上为什么的为什么

为什么越感越孤单
为什么越感越寂寞

就算和朋友聊天，逛街，看电影
一大群人，热热闹闹，开开心心
可是总有一团乌云围绕着我 
内心的阴暗潮湿低落无法被开心披盖
这已是第几个哭泣的夜晚

从上一次后
再一次无法控制的泪洪之后
我对自己说
没有下一次·
如果再有下一次
那必须被完结。

but now how? what should i do?
i should break my promise?
yup, cry again tearing again...
im try so hard...so hard...so hard
to avoid any argument happen
to avoid any unhappiness happen 
im trying so strive...:'(
but why again and again
i silent..i accept..i let's go
should i hiding myself again?

i don't want crying for no reason anymore
i care..and the people surrounding me care
i realize it no longer before.
why..people know without any of my words.. 
but you don't know..
im so....helpless and lonely
i don't wish to throw you away
i don't wish to let you be alone
coz i know you are in the place without anyone you close to
you need me..you need accompany
but why you leave me alone...i need accompany as well :'(

so now..how? what can i do?
stick to my promise? or break my own promise?
you may think im so selfish im think of myself
but think properly, did i? 
im the one who keep looking to the phone when you are at outside without any message leaving
im waiting without any anger but worry..
when you say you are so tired
i know.. but i feel the tired is only when chat with me.. :'(
and when we are chatting, 
am i "sleeping"?
am i "studying"?
am i "resting"?
i stop everything. without any blaming..
i also tiring...

"are you still belong to me?" :'(